Revisiting Mother’s Day

Revisiting Mother’s Day

  Seeds are my Mother's Day gift.  My first without my Mother.  Tall bellfower, leadplant, old field goldenrod, spotted Joe Pye weed, copper shouldered oval sedge, milkweed, all in clear plastic bags labeled with growing instructions.  Sun exposure, soil type,  moisture ideal for them.  The seeds range in appearance from cottony wisps, to the smallest [...]

Dog Years

Dog Years

HRH Elizabeth lost her last corgi.  The palace reports the Queen is gutted by the loss of Willow, last in the royal line.  Corgis are fresh in my mind after seeing one beg at the table of  Winston Churchill and King George II in Darkest Hour. And of course if you watch The Crown, corgis [...]

Moving Kids

Moving Kids

    It feels like urban camping. I bring my sleeping bag, wear jeans, no make-up. I make sure my clothes are dark, something that doesn't show newsprint and an outfit that can go from oven cleaning to dinner. It is our third child, our baby that is moving to Chicago. The others have had [...]

Matriarch, me?

Matriarch, me?

Matriarch. Me? The female head of a family.  An old woman, possibly obsolete, yet worthy of respect and reverence.  One with impressive dignity and notable character. The reality of being the oldest generation of our family at a time of endings and beginnings doesn't quite seem possible. You lose your mother, the former female head [...]

Home Is Where?

Home Is Where?

Who will we be without this place? And where else could home be? When we left Saint Paul, I convinced myself that we could move back when the kids were grown. We would want one of those craftsman bungalows with bedrooms on one floor. We could get to the coffee shop, restaurants, the theater, museum [...]

Life Begins

Life Begins

For men life begins when the last child leaves home and the dog dies. Well, that is what has happened. It's just us now. Phil and I hold each other in the small exam room in the Vet's office.  Phoebe, our 14 year old Lab is with Dr Sven in back. He is starting an [...]

Empty Frame

Empty Frame

I am learning about dreams. Dreams that come during sleep. My desires, fears, and challenges confronting me. And to identify what a "Big Dream" looks like – living out a desire that defines who I am. I am in a dream study group that allows me to share my dreams. Dreams are sometimes lost to [...]